University Life

As year 2 draws to a close, I thought I'd journal some thoughts regarding how college has been.

With regards to COURSE CHOICE:
I had a huge struggle with lifescience at first, it being the "safety net" for me. I had (or possible have) absolutely no passion or interest in this course, nor is it the course I envisioned myself to be in a few years back. After going through rounds of trying to escape, I think I've finally accepted my path. The scholarship gave me a new found purpose for studying, and I suppose God does have His reasons for putting me in teaching rather than as a doctor. In retrospect, I don't think I would have enjoyed the entire studying process of medicine either. The commitment level is way too high and I would have needed to give up a lot of my ministries in church which I feel a greater burden for. Perhaps that was why when they posed me the question "Will you give up your church commitments to become a doctor in the future?", my answer was no.

With regards to PEOPLE:
I have made many acquaintances throughout these 2 years, but unfortunately, have not found any good friends that will possibly stay with me after this phase of my life. It is hard to find like-minded people in such a general course, because everyone comes from different walks of life, and all are taking different paths. It's a bit hard to explain, but I find myself very different from them. Maybe it's me? Haha. I've always had a problem finding friends that last anyway. I'm glad I joined crusade though, Sophia has been a great encouragement to me. (:

With regards to RESULTS:
I haven't been exactly getting my "expected" results, which has certainly been a humbling experience for me. I'm used to being the cream of the crop, and dropping to an average student wasn't exactly what I would call fun. I've learnt a lot since then, that results aren't everything. I'm still praying for contentment, but I must say that God certainly has been good.

I still cannot wait to graduate, and university is an agony. I'm counting down till the end! Haha but it's getting better as the semesters go by and I really thank God for seeing me through every step of the way. (:

`signing off
-lynn